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Things Are Looking Up!

So, it seems that luck is on my side.  I'm going back to work Sunday night at the same place as before prior to going out on workers comp.  They backed for me and I honestly didn't think they had to because I am only a temp.  Not entirely thrilled about going back to this particular place, but a job is a job at this point and I should just be happy with that!  Yay for getting back into the swing of things!

I've also realized lately that I probably don't give myself enough credit intellectual wise.  I got down about my midterm in financial analysis because I got an 80 on it to later find out that the instructor went in and edited it to a 100.  I also was so confused on this one assignment that I had to do and found out that I got a 100 on it as well.  I beat myself up way too much about college.  I'm still trying to decide whether or not I want to go for the bachelors.  I'm thinking I'm going to take a semester or two off and take some time to myself to figure out what I want/need to do.

On a more positive note, I found out that the real-estate agent that we were (are in the future) going through to find a house, has a position open for administrative assistant.  I sent her my resume.  That would be perfect for me!  She said I could decide whether I go in at 8 or 9 in the morning and it's Monday-Friday.  That would be a great start toward my career.  It would be such a blessing if I got that position!  Keeping my fingers crossed!

I hope to get back into blogging more regularly now that I'm going back to having a life and will have things to talk about!  Please hang in there people!  Give me some time to get back into the swing of things!

Take The Good With The Bad

Hey, everyone -- checking in!  It's been awhile.  I know.  I have a lot going on, but not a lot going on.  Physically, all I have is school work and maintaining my apartment right now.  I'm trying to figure out what is going on with my job, that is, whether or not I still have one.  I have a lot of things that I have to work out with my inner self and things that I have to work on in general.  Blogging for me right now will be periodic as I can't dedicate as much time to it right now as I would like.  I'm still not giving up on it though.  I still very much love to blog.  If any of my followers want to leave, I completely understand.  For those of you who want to remain loyal to me and my blog, I adore you and it's definitely, DEFINITELY appreciated.

Thanks for understanding.

Much love <3

Rant, Rant, Rant!

If you came here today thinking that I was going to have a happy-go-lucky post today, I apologize sincerely.  Today is a rant post just because and well, I'm kind of in need of one.  Lately, I'm not quite sure what I want to do -- scream, cry, or laugh.  I feel kind of bipolar lately.  My mind is playing tug of war. 

Firstly, I'm on a new medication for mood stabilization and are suppose to expect to be all over the place mood wise for a few weeks until it can get into my system.  Beautiful.  The doctor told me to take one pill at bedtime for two weeks, then I have to switch to two -- 1000mg eventually, 500mg right now.  It's suppose to slow down your mind from racing and help you to think more clearly, more logical.

I went to the hand doctor on Thursday and officially got released back to work to find out that I had to reapply and am currently jobless unless they call me back.  I really need them to call me back for a couple of reasons.

For one, I'm jobless which equals zero income.

Two, Jason and I only have one "working" vehicle which means, I can't work anywhere else because Jason works third, he wouldn't have the car back to me in time to start a 1st shift job and I wouldn't have the car back to him on time if I worked a 2nd shift job, so he could go to work.  I told Jason, if Electrolux takes me back, my first priority is to save for another car ASAP.  I have to literally pray that they take me back.  I feel like I haven't needed to pray for something so hard in all my life.

I'm in my last semester and I'm taking this one class that is literally going to be the death of me -- financial analysis.  I hate it.  Like why all of a sudden do I have a difficult class in my last semester?  I never had a class this hard through my whole associates degree...why now?!

I have a lot of negative thoughts running through my head lately.  I'm trying to stay positive, but it truly is difficult considering everything going on.  I know it could be worse.  It could be a lot worse.  The one thing that I'm grateful for is that Jason makes enough for us to keep this place.  I hate that I have to put all the pressure on him right now.  It's not a good feeling to feel helpless.  My self-esteem is just totally shot and I have no idea how to get it back.  I feel like my college education will be a waste, I have zero motivation to lose weight, I can't ever find anything to write about on this stupid blog because I don't have a life right now...I still love my blog though, and I'm 23...going on 24 this month and still searching for who I am and my purpose.  I'm so utterly frustrated.  I'm also frustrated that you guys always have to read all my negativity.  No one likes someone who constantly complains about everything.  It's draining.  I wish I didn't have to be like this, but it's how I feel.

Well, babe is up.  Going to see if he wants to take the daily Dunkin' run.  It gets me out of the house.  Is it sad that I look forward to a 5 minute drive to Dunkin Dounuts? 

Things That No One Tells You About A Narcolepsy Study

So after being told that I don't have sleep apnea, the doctor wanted to rule out narcolepsy too.  When I think of narcolepsy, I think of those people that are walking and then randomly fall down because they fall asleep.  It's something that they can't control.  While I do have excessive day time sleepiness, I'm not that bad.  I just wanted to get it over and done with and was under the impression that it only took 45 minutes and consisted of 4 sessions.  Well, apparently I missed the memo on the following things that I wasn't told:

It's an all day test - You're there from 8 a.m until about 3 p.m.  I couldn't believe it.  I was so aggravated because I was told 45 minutes.  Someone clearly doesn't know anything about Narcolepsy studies.

It's a tedious, boring test - It consisted of 4, 40 minute sessions of sitting in a dark room as still as you can and try not to fall asleep.  You get an hour in between to do what you want -- watch t.v, play on the phone, go to the bathroom, etc.  It's a lot harder than I thought to stay awake in a dark room, not being able to do anything but sit still.

You get screamed at through a box in the wall - At the beginning and end of each test, the girl screams through this box in the wall that literally scares the shit out of you because it's so unexpected.  You have to do an equipment check at the beginning and ending of each test where they have you do things like sit with your eyes shut, sit with your eyes open, look up and down with your eyes only 3 times, look side to side with only your eyes 3 times, blink 5 times, and pretend you're chewing 3 times.  It gets old after awhile.

They feed you better there than you eat at home - That's no lie.  I had a cheap version of steak, vegetables, a baked potato with sour cream, dinner roll, fruit, and pudding cup with a sweet tea.  It was great.

There is a mandatory drug test - Not that I have anything to worry about, but there is a mandatory drug test half way through, after lunch to make sure that none of the prescription drugs you're on are making you sleepy...so they say.

You get to put on your own personal freak show - I had to walk half way through the hospital with all these wires attached to my face where I had to sit in a waiting room where people were staring at me because apparently they never seen someone attached to a bunch of wire before.  I had to wait to be called to have my drug test done.

Other than that, I get released tomorrow to go back to work.  After the doctors, I have to bring my release form to my "employer" and see if I still have a job.  I was told that I have to reapply, but we'll see.  I have no clue what tomorrow is going to consist of.  I'm in the middle of my semester and college and one of my classes is very, very hard for me.  I'm very stressed out lately.  I hope I can find time to blog at least a few times a week in between full-time school and full-time work.  Very nervous to see what tomorrow holds.

Introducing My Other Half, Jason!

I've had this blog now for about 4-5 months now, not including my weebly account and I haven't even introduced my other half!  I've been with him going on a little over five years now.  So without further ado, here is Jason.

This picture was taken when I took him up to Greenville for his birthday dinner at TGIFriday's.  That was a good day.  So like I said, we've been together for a little over five years now.  I would say that we have a pretty good relationship.  People always comment and say, "how do you guys do it?"  I always play stupid and say, "do what?"  Oh, have a good relationship?  That's easy!  Do we fight?  Sure.  Do we always agree on everything?  Sure don't.  But, we are honest and loyal to each other.  We like each other for who we are.  

Sometimes it's a little difficult because Jason and I are 7 years apart and that sure does make all the difference sometimes.  Truth is, no matter who you are with, there are always going to be things that you can't stand about the person.  You're always going to have problems.  That's life.  You just have to find the best way to make it work for the both of you because the grass isn't always greener on the other side.  I rather put up with someone who is a tight wad with money and stubborn than have someone who is a pathological liar and isn't loyal.  Jason loves me for who I am, regardless of how crazy I am.

Him and I have been through a lot together and are still going through a lot.  I couldn't image going through it all with anyone else.  I'll be talking about him a lot more, so I thought I better introduce him, so you all know who I'm talking about what I say, "Jason this and Jason that..."

He is 31 years old.  He just turned 31, April 14th.  He has a passion for working on his trucks.  Like what guy doesn't?  He likes rock music -- bands like Disturbed and Pantera.

Just like me, we love spending time up in Greenville in Reedy Falls Park.  It's absolutely beautiful and calming up there.  Every so often (because it is a 45 minute trip one way), we like to stroll through the park and go for bubble tea.  Jason and I have a lot in common.  We both have expensive taste.  That's for sure.  If I land a decent paying job in Greenville someday, we have plans of moving to Greenville.  We love it there.  I couldn't imagine spending my life with a better person.  He makes me want to be a better person.

Spreading Happiness Project -- Link Up, Vol. 2

It's that time again, people!  Lets talk about the things that made us happy this week, no matter how big or small.  This week has been tough for me between some family issues and having trouble in one of my classes.  I'm also stressed out about getting released on the 30th of this month and seeing if I still have a job to return to.

I'm thankful/happy for finding out that I don't have sleep apnea and not too much trouble breathing.  I'm just on two inhalers as a precautionary.

I'm thankful/happy for being applicable for this HOP program, so I can see doctors as needed without having outstanding medical bills.

I'm thankful/happy for having a best-friend that makes me feel a lot better just by talking to her and who I can have a lot of laughs with.  She helps me to not take life too seriously and she is always there when I need her.

I'm thankful/happy for wine and bubble bath.  I took a nice, hot bubble bath last night and poured myself a nice glass of wine with a strawberry as garnish.  I very much enjoyed my bubble bath w/ wine.  Just what was in order.

I'm thankful/happy that Jason gave me a hug this morning.  It was very much needed.

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What made you happy this week?